A hint of Smile?

As i woke i felt a sudden change in me!
I begin to wonder and revise what has happened.
To my suprise i really cant take it anymore.
I was in pain or still is.
Especially today,

I guess iam just overthinking it,
or the fact that iam just 'emo',
as i would like not to use that word,
but i got to say... iam now.

It hurts, my heart aches,
i guess i didnt express my feelings for her,
i guess i didnt show that i love her?
Did I not?

Staring my phone just to see she greet me
'morning'
'good night'
'i miss you'
'i love you'
but i dont know if those are important now...

Sometimes you fell asleep,
with no msg in the morning,
you did apologize at times =)
but at some points,
when you didnt,
it ruin my mornings.

I know she has a life,
I know she is active,
I know she is busy,
I know she is tired,
I know she have her ow problems
Maybe Iam just a burden!
Esp Now!

But I dont know whether she still loves me.

If she do love me,
am i just blind to see it!
Why cant i feel it?

Syah & Khairi knows my fear now.
It might be a small deal to some,
but whats the point of not knowing she loves me,
giving my all to her. I know its worth it.
But i come to realise is it?

GAGAGAGA

A pathetic creature iam xD
A fragile human being.
With over sensitive feeling for a dude x)
A person who is very careful yet still can be hurt deep inside,
As whips to the heart leaving bloody scars!

Or people who have tummy ache with feeling of vomit?? ahhh x)

yeah i guess iam sick!
Man whats wrg, ramai org feel like vomiting di skulah ah!
Te-spread banar nie!

Ahaxxx Iam just paranoid now,
A smirk in my face like a clown,
with evil look and full of anger,
staring things with such focus!

paakknn xD

EDIT:
Iam feeling much better now =)
Mayb~ xD
=(

& to think i m leaving you!
Was I wrong, I Dont want to!
If your wondering what my head was filled through out the morning!

Fuck out, peace y'all