Its so un-developed.

Hello folks. Yes, a pretty much late update. Weekend was fun, could of been a blast BUT my mood is 'GONE'! I'm not the only one feeling like this, I hope. I feel so 'BORED' in school, at home, in the car, otw to somewhere, waiting for something, trying to achieve something. F-ucking bored. I feel very 'empty' to. I want to fly..... literally, I want to be in a fantasy, I want to be in a storybook where everything is 'HAPPILY FUCKING EVER AFTER'!

Dull, everything is dull now! I have nothing to look forward too. Inspiration are not there anymore. Who am I trying to impress anyway? I lost faith in that department already. Don't Eff-ing care!

But as I was saying earlier. I did have a pretty decent weekend. Thanks to Saturday playing rugby with them friends & to the late late movie night at Aziemah's crib. =) With pizza take outs, thriller movie with heavy lightning flashing in the dark cold room, cold comfy pillow & blankets, short naps & companions around you was awesome. No doubt about that. Oh & the hamsters that Ira almost crippled! HAHAHA

Only then did I enjoyed myself but really something else was still missing. My mood, my mojo? HAHAHAH Bh bh! I'm done bitching! I hope tomorrow is a great day. =) See most of you readers tomorrow, yes~ Give me a 'smile' will you, it'll make me so much better. For the one's I haven't seen or spoken to in ages. Just give me a e-smile! HAHAHAH =P




CHATBOX MSGS:

MG! O-'MG'! hahahah! I knew your still lurking around! ;P Yeah, I knew what came out.... unfortunately not to my liking. We didn't even finish our 'mussolini' part. We only manage till Hitler & Stalin (which btw I was so looking forward too) Lucky, MG sudah abis the syllabus. Its not our teacher's fault btw. Its just that kami banyak tukar tcher. -.-'

Oh & I always had a feeling that you were still around in this blog! ;3 I miss you too! =) Been a very long while has it!

Lynniefag: HAHAHAHHA! Sama th, mata kami ah! I pretty much lost alot of my sight because of my dark room & glaring light from the laptop! -.-'

Ira: Tayang! WHAT YOU TALKING ABOUT! I've been interested in drums since I was a fetus! HAHAHHA! =# But yeah minat. I still play but still a newbie! =O Oh & you were already my cookie since last last long long time ago! =B Plus your extra sweet this Saturday! Apaan 'lame' jua eyh! HAHAHA

Hey-O

Its 12-O-Clock & I'm just bleeding my ears from awesome songs! From Black Sabbath, Incubus - Anna Molly, to System of a down, to avenged sevenfold. You get the picture.



AWESOME! Just AWESOME! 1 of my pending song which I would LOVE to cover! Drum cover that is!



Oh & Salin is one of the best drummer girl I came across! Isn't she awesome! =O



This is an interesting one! Ice drums anyone! =O The ice drum set sounds so good! =O Im surprised! Loving the tom-tom beats! =)


Fuck yeah, this is my medicine for the moment. Fucking exam was a disappointment! Music is all I've got now! Oh, its Friday & usually I have extra class since last month so I also slept early! BUT I have no extra class tomorrow & I guess it will be my first Firday day off for awhile! DO what I do BEST! Laze around! Bwahahahaha! Sleep in late! ;B

Man, I find peace at awesome or metal hard drum beats. Hearing Children Of Bodom & Lamb of gods is so perfect in my predicaments NOW! bwahahahah! I have not much to say but music now!

AH MOTHER FUHRER

Yes, history AS is in another another 13 hours or so! -.-' & I ain't studying this very moment! I'm too freaked out I guess. Trying to relieve a lil stress nie, since 6 hours ago! -.-' MOTHER F.... O.o FUCK-er! I want COOKIES! Random much! Please can someone get me cookies! Screw that, please be my cookies so I can nibble on you! For them girls.... THANK YOU VERY MUCH!

BULLOKS! Sorry I've been MIA. I was constraining myself from ps3, any form of games but shit I STILL FAILED! As I have been watching Leverage season 2 & now 3 since Sunday! -.-' I'm so screwd!

Seth: I’m sorry I’ve been such an ass, okay. It’s just, you’re superior to me in so many ways. You’re better looking, you’re more popular, you’re stronger… and not just emotionally.
Summer: Seth, I’ll always look up to you. And not just because you’re taller than me.

You know, I find that quote from the girl very adorable! ;3 Oh & somehow, I can relate to this feeling of being an 'ass'. Not because I'm an ass but that I just envy you for being yourself & i can't do shit about it! Oh well, life's like that!

Its from tumblr btw. For some darn reason, a day before my exam. I have to go on to unknown tumblr sites & amuse myself. WHY TODAY? -.-'

& for some reason I can't change back the font & spacing, so bare with me!

I'll update me tumblr during the next month! ;P & maybe a twitter acc too! But for now! It all depends on tomorrow! After that! My AS is officially over & I can do all the SHIT i want!

OH OH! Today's highlight was listening to my old classic band which really, was a lost long favourite. & the best part was listening it with someone. None other than Ira. =) The band was btw 'Sheila on 7' LOADS LOADS of memories within these songs with my soul.

Last thing.

-Source Base - World War 1

-Italy & Germany unification

-Dictatorship of Stalin or Hitler. Pls no Mussolini.

-Russian revolution/ Bolsheviks

My targets for tomorrow!

Today, just like any other day but different.

Agenda for today have been quite busy, compare to my other lazily Fridays. So I went to school early for once, the parking was so empty! I thought inda jadi pakah! I saw Azizi's ride sja! Bummer! Ziemah's car pun nada! Then Syah pun nada! Then si anu pun nada... then... Hahaha! My point being is that not alot of people attended.

I must say the topic was fairly too detailed! =O But we were presented with video's of Hitler's speech & whatnot! Wasn't that long, but jadi th! I also felt sorry when sir told us he didn't sleep all night since he was doing the powerpoint slides just for us! =/ Sikit lagi org tue! (just trying to make some people guilty, who didn't came) xD

-Went to jangsak membeli Nasi Katok as usual with danny. Tried the pulut panggang! MHHHHMMM~

-Balik liat 'vanity lair'! HAHAHAH! Face it! There are too much beautiful people! & I lovit! Final season though. *cough cough errr carry on...

-Friday prayer, which I tried to stay awake & had my head wobbly from sleepiness! HEY! In my defence I wasn't the only one! HAHAHA

-Baru limpang for 5 min! THEN mum suruh bangun kn bawa jalan our maid-man for our last jalan! Yeah, he is leaving tomorrow! He & I have bonded alot & he did alot to help my family! Most thing I can't forget is when he was there when my dad passed. He is after all our mengaji/religious teacher too who guided us.

I know he was here for a reason, when my father first hired him, 2 years ago! Its just faith to have him guide us during that horrid moment. I can't thank him enough.

-Anyhoo, nyebarang ke yayasan. Made my own bank account. Just waiting for the atm card! HEHEHE >;P Round-round bandar. Makan. Shopping. I bought new school shoes btw. =O You'll see it tomorrow I guess! =P

-So i had a delimma between buying toys at hua ho! 2 particular toys that is! HAHAHA I'm a nerd! I had my eyes on 1) Nerf gun or 2)Lightsaber! HAHAHHAHAHA NERD MUCH! Both of them cost $55+ BUT I bailed after 5 times of touching each toys! HHAHAHA

-We shopped for a long freaking time! I'm still tired now! Aite. I'll stop here!

Ps. Sorry my blog havent had pictures in awhile! Wait till I'm truly free from my AS! Which is in 6 more days! *GASSPSSS! Oh reminds me esuk liat bolaaa! A big match too! =PP

Laugh Out Loud = LOL

I was intrigue by my recent chatbox comment by kiss! HAHAHAH! Sorry to keep you in suspence kissy! =P I'll tell you when the time is right! Next year kaa! HAHAHA! Ano, I'm quite sure I'm sober; from girls now! I have my AS to worry about! ESEH! But yeah, I'm trying to get over anyone in my head atm! Does not mean, that I won't talk to them fellow mates or not even flirt with them! =P I'm just like any other male, who likes to talk to women in my own ways. ;P & I don't flirt with women at most cases; 'That's just how I talk'. Smooth talker? HAHAHHA Prasan!

Oh, I have been in almost ALL my classes this week! Except 1 socio & 1 econs class! I deserve a pat on the back! Can someone do the honours! =P Oh & socio has been pretty interesting since yesterday. I think because;

1) Lynnie was finally in class with 2 other guest Kiss & Nabilah (the chinese look-alike girl) =P
2)Personal question about family & ourselfs follow of bullying of Kristin. =P
3)Today alone was fun due to the fact we talked about tcher's height! =O & I pretty much said something risky! LOL!

Oh, I did a highscore in the apple's game 'something bird' namanya at Syah's i-phone! Bangga ku I beat her record! But then she came back on top! -.-' This was yesterday btw. So I played it again today & FUCK I was few points away! I'll get it soon enough! >=O

Tomorrow ada History extra class again. For once I don't dread these extra classes on Friday esp if its history, I'm pretty sure that's where my interest lies! =) ESP with an extraordinary teacher like Sir.Herman.

Aite, thats my update for today! Last note, I also manage to complete season 1 of Leverage! Its an awesome awesome series! Being professional theives is looking too good for my career target next! HAHAHAHA Realistic-ly I want to either be a diplomat like my dad, or somewhere in public relations. I like traveling & interactions with foreigners. But my choice's are still open & tend to wonder..... so I'm not sure. Doing politics & business is another interest. I'm a nerd! HAHAHA well at least I'm planning for my future in a way. So its all good!

LOL! I guess I have too much thoughts for today! Good Night pepol!

Lets be happy together.

-I would like to apologize again for the bird I've accidently hit. Guilty wah aku!

-I'm feeling a little more better both mind & heart! Thank you all.

-I've really got nothing much to say. This is just a short update.


-Had a convoy road trip with Hafiz to places today! & chilled at my house till 8pm, bru ia balik! Samseng sudah nie, akhir balik during school days! lol

- To any broken-hearted people, don't fret. In time, it'll pass. It'll be a challenge, trust me I know! I'm still healing from my father's traumatic passing till now. But I survive with friends, with faith, & every laughter I shared with every one of you.

-So take every sweet opportunity you have with them & cherish these very moments. Even the little things in life that makes you smile counts.

I bid thee a goodbye, for tonight & have a pleasent tomorrow morning.

Why like this one!

Didn't realise that I haven't updated in days. How like this one maa! =O I also have no idea. I guess I was counting the days to my GP/History that I lost count of the days passing by! Ano, I did my GP AS tadi. I HOPE its in topic! I need this!

Highlights?

-I langgar a large bird tadi! ='( It was just standing there at the road. I thought it'll fly away. THEN BUUUK!! from the bumper to the windshield with my reaction mcm apa! But I felt bad though!

-Morning table gang made me hyper today, very unusual & 'yellow'! Victims: Big boss, I-man, Nisa & Jeeb.

-Finally belajar econs, which I was so blur but at the end faham! After 2 weeks ++ of not studying! But I bailed on socio. After that, teacher spotted me & cubit-ted me! =O All thanks to Ziemah & Safwan for attracting teacher's attention!

-The ging - hafizu & belle was in a very yellow topic again! Ranging from pms, to shlongs! HAHAHHA

-Went to 'Smart' bali chocos. Then chilled rah rmah syah. Danny, Ira, Rozie & myself cramp rah kreta baru si syah! =O But it was still fun!

-Exam GP! Like I said I hope its in topic! 700+ words. I think I got carried away!

-Oh ano, I was driving home, when I spotted her driving too. So I chased after her for awhile! (STALKER much) WAWAWA! Then ada tia si ah-boo (amal's man) driving laju behind me! 150 yawh! MATIE! Aku sudah 120 chasing her! HAHAHHA She is so cute with her fashionable glasses though! Shit, I find alot of girls gorgeous today! I guess I'm at that phrase again! HAHAHHA C'mon, does not hurt to compliment of a girl's undying beauty.

I feel like...

LIKE SHIT! I feel so 'emo' lately. Emotion is just uncontrollable now. Its hard to be with someone you like, isn't it? To have comfort with another other. Well its just difficult. Not that I'm desperate nor want to be with someone. But I just want a person who understands & can be with me alone. Better yet, a female companion. I don't ask for much.

I know for an instant, a girl who means alot to me will make me 'smile' just like that, but at the same time makes me' down' just as fast since I know I just couldn't tell her.

Not only is that f-ed up.

I was driving home one afternoon, passed the cemetry. Tear's start coming out very, very slowly. I just realised that I miss my father so much! I thought of his presence, what he gave me, what he sacrifice for me, what he taught me, what he scolded me for. I really miss that. I try to make fun of myself at that particular time whilst still driving & all. But my feelings have just been bottled up for too too long. I couldn't stop. I learn to look at the bright side, being optimistic, being calm, being a fool from this endeavor. It helped.

After he passed, I felt so crushed. Too lonely, which actually gave me the courage to confess to a certain someone few months after. It made me feel at ease to have that someone in my life. We cared for each other, made each other smile. Though it was for awhile, it was worth remembering. I was reluctant to fall in love again after we were apart.

I guess all I need is that 'someone' who can make me smile, & not to screw up & actually be friends without her knowing that she means a whole lot to me. =)

Aite, I felt better. Sorry for being a lil too over the top mellow dramatic! & thanks to Bob Marley's - Don't worry be happy. Made me much much better. My blog prevails again in making my stress out at it.

Good luck y'all. Addiction to 311-Amber. Fucking beautiful song.

Karma; it sucks. While last week is awesome, my start of this week is arrghh! I guess its only Monday blues. Fucking 'blues'.

I have very much indeed to report since I left. But I don't have the mood. Nothing made me happy today in school, cept from some people. A sick girl & a caring girl, made me smile today in school & only then.

I sound so 'emo'! HAHAHA! Its one of those days. It'll pass, I know of it. Oh & i'll be starting my AS esuk. I hope to ace both subjects. So i started reading my history. I hope, I hope I can get an 'A' for it!

Aite update complete. I'mma gonna play game jab! hahahah!

I'll be back - Terminator

The day before & after

My last final exam was yesterday, wednesday! I'M FREE! NOT! AS is right in the corner! I can taste it! ='( So I skipped school & just arrived for the cam in the afternoon! So what did happened yesterday? Let me tell you! =P

-Planning to go to Tasek for a jog. Instead went to Shah bandar. There was only 2 athletes, one lil one & a fat one! HAHAHHA! Guessed who? Hafiz, Rozie, Aziemah & myself! =D

-So before that chilled rah rumah hafiz since I'm not the bothered going home! FAR FAR away! Its really getting to me on how far I'm am FROM EVERYTHING. Esp when I drive nowdays!

-We went there at 5ish. 2 rounds of walking, a lil jogging, talking, pointing at monkeys. We're done! HAHAHA! I was just not that fit waaah! -.-' Sudah bagitau them athletes to go jog their ass off inda mau! Guilty jua ku tue!

-Played at the playground which was amusing. =B

-Went to T.Bunut Hua ho after that ke Easy Way. Chilled. Pokoknya siok lh.

-BALIK! Boring driving ke rumah!



TODAY, Thursday.

-I went to school, but skipped all classes since I went to UBD 2nd Memorial SOAS. It was an honour & very limited too! BUT! Wasn't so grand as I didn't see neither Sultan or Crown Prince.

-But I get to know a little more about a certain Dr. who was along side SOAS. Which was interesting. I did doze of for a min or 2. HAHAHAH! You know the state where your sitting straight & your head wobbling just to keep balance whilst asleep for a moment! That's my situation! HAHAHAH

Au, kami sikit sja.

Representative Katok th nie! =O

Syah, always the bestie! <3

The historians.

-Oh, my history mate there was non more than my fellow ging history members. Syah & Dan. We politicians/historians/lawyers like that! APAAAN! -.-' Oh, we also met coach Huzaimi, T.Mubarak, T.Kumar, T.Akmal! =P

-Then at touch of school, tarus balik, antar si soon to be bday boy danny!

-I was planning to go Shah Bandar again. But my head was spinning & my legs were a little tight from yesterday's jog. I don't mind going alone! BUT again, in my head! Jauh jua lagi ke sana tue! FUCK! Its annoying! Well Rozie intentionally going to come but bailed.

-So yeah, I decided to jog/cycle at the kampong. It turn out well until I started jogging. Where you feel an about-cramp feeling at the leg muscle! NO PLEASENT! So I bailed! & I wanted to play badminton with my mother BUT instead clean the lungkang sewer since its clogged! O.O NO MORE PLEASENT! BUT at least ada add on excercise! HAHAHHA

-With a fucking shovel, I dig all the way to the sewer! Sakit nah my right arm! My nose endure the stank! Then I went for another cycle around kampung while drizzling! Sejuk, nyaman but I think i'm quite damam now! HAHAHA

-My legs are very tight now & I can hardly walk. Since its been awhile with lack of stretches. I guess my jogging & swimming plan esuk akan saya batalkan! But hopefully main badminton again with mom.

I'm trying to be in shape again even midst of AS! Being in a healthy life style does not hurt! =B So far my week have been in full use & have lots of activities. Its awesome! Life for I know now is SWEET! & I thank them friends. =)

Have a great weekend everybody.

My Minions!

Yesterday's Ordeal was, dare I say awesome. Went to Faiz's house & chill there & got high if you know what I mean. Hahahaha! It was freaking hilarious & funny too. But I won't say much. What happened there stays there since its just too awesome. I drove fucking sleepy for the 2nd time just this week!!=O

A similar thang happened too today, an awesome day with the minions & ging. =D Apparently these 2 days I attend all my classes because most of them jua nada class, so just show ma face! hahaha! Spend time with the ging/sekolah having a 'acoustic band' session in the canteen with the usual & Boo, Belle, Rozie, Muin! Siok lh siok.

Then later that afternoon we; My 2 tayang & wingman decided to have lunch & far off went to the beach! =O Had confrontations with some curiousity moments! HAHAHA! I like ticking of Ziemah with suspences! I'll write about the trip in Ziemah's ghetto mode, or try too!

Yaw, dawg. We drove down to gdg at city mahn! We ate our way thru' the hood near MD territorries at C.A Muhammad! & then geng, we meet'in Azrin & Azwan with our surprise Ira was close like that with em'! Eventually snooping in mall, doing errand & shitz. We chillin, our shits at secret recipe afta! My mahn, it was dope! (HAHAHAHHAHA)

The 2 shorties & tall dude! =P

Being Homeschool yaw!

We gangsta like that! >=P

We then exchange of cars ke sini ke sana yaw! Dawg, I got to say. Someone's ride was pimpin shits mahn~ It runs so smooth, that my head was popping crazy all day, know what I mean y'all! Cruise down the highway to berakas beach, its d' bomb thar at the time. Heat was making as high lyke shiz man! Vain-ing moment as gangsta we did! Like it was so awesome y'all! Overall, we cus'in, rap-pen, laughin the whole afternoon with our very own celebrity Ira MAA!

Ira our celebrity baby! =P

Ok ok.... I'll stop! HAHAHAHHA! That actually took me longer & is so much harder than I thought. GILA! This was influence by ziemah btw! Because she is ghetto like that! HAHAHAH My gp esuk & blog cani lagi! -.-' Pokoknya I had fun with the lovlies. =)

I'll leave with some pictures, thanks to si bulat for uploading in fb & last request! =)

Its Funkeh.

Connection is very funkeh, I'm really funkeh, my life is funkeh, my love life is funkeh, my situation is funkeh. Mahn, I'm starting to hate being in my condition lately. I want to change, for the greater good. For myself. So I can gain my confidence. For all I remember I've been overwhealm with the littlest of things but not seem to overcome it. It makes me want to say 'Fuck, what's the matter with me' -Mental breakdown- HAHAHHA

I'll change, I will change this few upcoming month left till the new years. & when I do, I'll say 'Fuck yeah, in your face old me!' Just you see pe-pol! I will change!

I'm waiting for the big match now at 10. Arsenal vs Chelsea babay! I like both teams, but I want Arsenal to prevail! Anything can happen, so I'm not certain who will win! EEE-GADZ! Connection is so slow.

3 star wars movies, Have been watch, I. Such beautiful plot, it is. -Talking like Master Yoda- FAIL! HAHAHAH!

Zoro popped at the carpet, but luckily, I screamed at the right moment & he leave a bit shit & a big FART! HAHAHAHAH! Cali eyh. Haven't heard a cat farting before! Or was it me! O.o HAHAHAH

Ps. Pictures from last night's party ada rah fb, thanks to Jim Bulat. =) Ano, me mau you upload kn lagi. Puh-less. -Puppy Face- HAHAHAHA =)

I just couldn't!

Its 4am right now. I'm having difficuties in sleeping. Knapa kn nie. Even my mom couldn't sleep lately! Hrmmm I'm just being random now. I heard the door outside, i think my brother pun is awake. I THINK. But I was so tired tadi! & now I can't sleep! I think I'm thinking too much. O.o

Howell Star Wars marathon here I come. =D

A lil lil update. Maybe I'll ask emba to make indo-mee soon! =B

The Geng

Fun Tired Fun Tired. What a day. Skipping school & attending only my exam in the afternoon. I was almost late for my exam. Luan lalai wah aku ani. I hate living so far away too. T.T GP was aite, but I guess I was quite off topic. Rupanya I wasn't ready for the paper. Bru liat 500-800 tarus panic! HAHAHA! Yeah I know it isn't that much. But I haven't had practice on essay for a really really really long time! =O

Went to danny's after that. Liat Tenacious-D & tertidor on his couch while holding a stick on my hand as he pointed out! HAHAHAH. Oh which reminds me the 6 star wars dvd I borrowed! Esuk th liat. Since we have bbq birthday rah si Karey, so malas lh I balik. At 6ish went to Hafiz's crib. Chill jab. His guitar trick astonished me! =O Then picked up Ziemah which was so 'ambung' inda membalas apa! hahahaah! Anu lagi tue, we mc mc mc while waiting at her house! 10min wah brah! xP Well not as bad as Ira's, sampai daddy nya kluar & tagur us last time! =x

After picking up Ira, went to T.Bunut Hua Ho>Menyanyi otw>Abis batt on I-touch Ira>Bali minyak>Jerudong Highway>Berakas Kem>Rumah Khairi. Baik jua ku ingat simpang! Mun inda sasat pakah kali!

Mamam>Syah's surprise visit>Mamam>Bonding>Vaining>Faiz Mamam lagi>Tunggu kn shisha>Bonding some more>Camera-ing>Caking>Car got stuck>Worried about car>The men helped out>My car was free>I was freaking scared>LATE!>Ira's curfew>Saya tak sempat shisha>Hafiz stayed>Drove sending Ira & Ziemah home>Talked otw>Drop them both>Omw home>Sunyi banar! =x

Pictures rah si ziemah. =)

The geng present; Faiz, Syah, Danny, Sarah, Ira, Ziemah, Hafiz, Karey, Senusi, Baby & myself. =O Baby is adik karey btw! xD

I'm sorry if the format seems confusing! =O Anyhoo. Happy Birthday 18th Khairi. We'll hang again dude. Chow meng!