So far so Good...

College this few days have been blissful for me. I'll just write awesome events & summarize long ill sentences.

Yes, I do miss most of them friends & you can say 'new' friends & you can also say 'soon to be friends' HAH! Pathetic I know....

-I didn't do my socio assignment, but thank god that I have a partner in crime who also didn't do it. You know who you are. But I was still panicked of going to school because of that assignment. But the awesome teacher was awesome enough to let us (the one who didnt do them) go with no problems. HyukHyukHyuk! I'm starting to like Cg.Rahmah & glad I gave her that 2nd chance, though we do still study 'AT TIMES' i understood it & she will cont. her Masters soon, that means new teacher? So for now, i'll enjoy her company.

-Cg.Syaz my history teacher is finding her way now, since she is new. She gives notes & explain in details. But I'm glad I get to have a *cough, cikgu cantik. So semangat for some reason! LOL! Also i feel very comfy in that class since most guys were SGS students & of course ada ze buddy Danial. So all is good. Today was fun too, we actually talked about 'Jerusalam' about the 1st crusade & the holy war of christianity vs muslim. Out of topic much. But it was fun lh jua, since I watched this in History channel few days back. Yes im a 'History NERD' But we manage to share, which is awesome Danny from his movie, This dude from a game, & I from the history channel. All related to the Holy War in Jerusalam. Anyhooo...

-GP was awesome today aswell, we get to do an activity to draw our 'Ideal Holiday' on a piece of paper without words on it, in a 'group' so I was with Farah, Amirul & Fadz (i think) so it was interesting since we have to mix our drawings. Since none of us were artists we improvise! & I also get to know them more. I was pretty much excited/astonished of a particular member. This is soooo obvious on who it is. She is just so 'Ayu' waaah!

Err lets move on.

-Econ is a bore now. Teacher is stalling so much with examples, though it can be funny at times but I need to study too. Owh a new teacher was also there, to take over next time, I guess. Talking about new teachers, apparently my GP teacher is the only one not changing, I hope! (Beside i like her teaching) I also got scolded since I can't sit next to the girls. So closed minded, its not like I'm going to do anything drastic to them. But nonetheless I still love the class. If you read my late late posts then you've known why by now. Raaaawwrr~ HAHHAHA! Who am I kidding, I should be more descrete nowdays, dont know who might be lurking in this blog. Now that I've mentioned it....


On to the moments

-I miss ze boo teramat-amat. So I'm glad that I stayed back yesterday where I spend my stay back time with her at Energy club meeting & also at the canteen. It was just like old days.
Rindu sangat mem-bully dia. Miss her so much sampai ia ter-headbutt my phone ani wah! Atu hardcore banar! HAHAH! Ada tue takah 'Nokia' on her head! Surri ah boo! Kami dua tue jua besalah bh. Anyhoo chilled with Geng Bas Skulah jua, well some of them like Syam, Fifins, Ziah & Amal B. It was siok siok to have them as company.

-I also get to dangani si Rozie last time. It was fun having that energetic girl around also with Mr.Doh too, (si Mamduh, kali) while waiting for their karate club. Wanted to dangani si Farah jua but inda sampat.

-The gang was as usual fun. With Syah, Belly, Danny, Hafiz & ocassionally Ashrie, Boo & Faiz & new member Aaron. hahaha! Bawa ia lh jua, kesian nada dangan. So recently we have our new spot at the 2nd floor tangga area! HAHHAHA! The gang's name is 'Geng Tangga Simpang Atas' HAHAHHAHA! Matie! Cali wah made by Faiz! But today was only Syah, Danny, Aaron & myself. It was a fun hang out today too. Esp start personal curious talks! Siok ahh broo! Buat hw lagi di sana danny ah! We made a toll today as Aaron as the bodyguard, toll collector, servant, point blames at him guy. HHAHAHA! Well I actually appoint him that! Jk jk sja plg! There was breeze at some points, & lawa permandangan nya wah, open & high lagi. Its like a not used balcony wah so hang out sana lh away from crowded people. & we werent the only ones, ada jua tue geng tangga lain. Kami bru buka business nie, compeititon tia! hahahah! Panat!

Ooooo, ada org dating jua wah atas ahh! Owh & cikgu lintas tanggu atu pun bangang why we were there but so far cikgu nya sporting lh, go with our reasons! hahahah!

-Owh it is a pleasent to hang out with meh new friend Izzati, we have only 2 class though but biasa sudah lh. Owh & today I officially met with 'Firah' as I call her. A pleasure indeed. I was still robotic! LOL! Still consider new new friends kn so iatah, not yet biasa. She has the most adorable smile, that can melt an ice berg in an instance! WAAISSEEH! A figure of speech. But so true!! hehe It reminds me of someone's rabbit teeth. Which btw is kiyuuutt!



Well overall was fun today, suppose to go tasek with the gang but I bail due to sakit parut & somehow my nerves was so weak today that i have sudden shakeyness at my arms & hands... I do not know why.

Jaaa people.

Holiday Craze? Well over dued.

Why is it that every last minute of holidays are awesome for me. -.-' I've been pretty much busy during the first few days till the end, which is good. Better than lazing around at home. But why must the awesome time be near the holidays, seems like everytime it does, I become more not ready for school, gets?

Anyhoo a short story of my 1 week so call holiday.

-First few days, missing college which was so ironic.
-Going out almost everyday for my driving lessons.
-Going out almost everyday 'after' driving lessons.
-Enjoying my cravings on that days going out. -.-'
-Went to 'geng gathering' at mall, chilling as what guys do.
-Shopping to get ready for 'Rasta' Theme party.
-Went to the party that Saturday with some buddies.
-Buddy sleep over on the last day.

Its pretty much my first holiday where I dont laze at home, instead more outgoing. It was fun though. Puas th hati. Oh I miss school, not because of school. Its because of other reasons. Oh, I'll like to describe the 'Rasta' theme party a little bit.


'The Rasta Theme Party'

My costume was pretty natural & not over modified like what the people who went all out. It was an awesome party too. We also had groups (reminds me of our tutor groups, LOL! -.-) Our table was cool men's table! hahaha! Named our group 'Mob Barley' & we came 3rd awesome too at the end. Owh it comprises of Hafiz, Hafiz's coach (which I forgot his name), another dude, Zul F & myself.

They were fun too. Sadly Danial cant make it since ia dating. Shame man shame! lol! Would of been an epic group. Had tons of games, & the Mc was also hilarious, the Raggae band was not too bad. Owh I almost forgot to mention them singer girls were 'Rawwwr'~
Kuddos for the singer girl who invite me to dance with her. I sweat like & I was all HAHAHHAHA! Lucu lh. My rasta name was 'Herbalious Batty Rider' (HAHAHHA) But foolishly I used the name 'Herbalious' it was freaking GAY! Why didnt I just take 'Batty Rider', It was from name generator btw. Hafiz got a cool name which I forgot. But I think it was 'Balastier Prophet' I think. There was awesome & way funnier rasta nicks!



'The Geng Hangout'

Was once again united with Khairi & Senussi (Sounds gay!) & of course my usual buddies Hafiz & Danial. Faiz & Rahat (who apparently wasnt contacted) saldy couldnt make it. But it was an awesome hang out. I also got a prank call from Aime's lil brother which Aime was so evil to set up! If its with these guys, for sure it will be like chilling arah '2' restaurants. So we went to 'The Spot' kh? Lupa ku & Coffee Bean. Siok lh siok.

I have some pictures to post for the holidays (still waiting the rasta party pictures). Maybe later or next time since its also lagging now, I want to write another post for this week's college moments.

Oh blog.

Oh Blog,

You know when you get bored, you can always have a fun time reading your own history, let it be happy, fun, sad, regretable moments but you know its worth it just to recall them. Unless you have delete them or made tons of blogs & in that case, too bad.

I've been with one & only one. (or 2) blogs in this lifetime so far. =) You know what, I've found out that, blogs actually knows you better, its like a friend who is always there when you need it. x) It's been roughly 2 years few months now, writing down my history & experiences. By now, I could write a whole book of my own life.

I'm glad that I have one, its a blessing to look back & read what I have written ages ago. Heck it also reminds me of posts I didnt remember I wrote, so it gets that much interesting. =) I found classic treasures as videos & pictures I thought I lost. But sadly, the upcoming years, I've been lazy uploading pictures here & is not just because of that, I rarely take pictures now. Words will suffice me. =)

Oh Blog,

You stick with me for all these years, with all my complaints, whines & whatnot. Somewhat you helped me release negatives views & made me all that better. I'm glad that I have a shrine, a legacy if you will, here. Its like my own sanction of stories, that keeps increasing as I go along. Though at later years, My post keeps decreasing, but its ok, I'm still around to update once in a full moon if I were not to be active. =)

I've reached my 441 post now, & hell that's alot. It could of been more, but like I said, I'll still blog, so It'll just multiply more memories, written words from me. Its 26th March 2010 now. Who knows I might read this back in another 5 years & many more years to come. =)

I hope that what I written here in my blog manage to clarify, entertain, give advise, share experiences to people who reads my posts. I know it can be boring to see only words now. Aint using them emotes today, just plain smileys & also no pictures either. But I hope you readers, can stick around & to those who does, I thank you for your time reading it. I apologies for lack of updates at times, but I aint a robot who can manage to blog everyday. xD

I'm reaching my life to a whole new step, a crucial step; college, the way to independent & whatnot.

Till then, I'm out. =)

Reliasation

Holy Crap. If some college students realize, that we only have 1 & a half year to actually to shape our course. Yes, I'm that slow. I know I want to go further studies after A's, so hopefully making it to a known university. But now it 'just' hit me that I have not alot of time to prepare for that. Imagine after this 1 & half year is over, if I'm lucky, I will be independent away from my new/old friends, away from the country even. At my present stage, I'm just aint ready for that level.

Its true what they say, that college is a mile stone, an important stage. But to have it done with & to succeed in this 1 half years for the next great step/leap is tremendous pressure. It makes me worried just thinking about it. It also saddens me that 'school' is at the last for me. I'm greatly implying this because I know teenage is the best time of one's life. Admit it, what teen manage life without school, well in Brunei anyways. Not the whole term 'school' but the prespective of school of being able to make friends, to be known, to socialize, to fall in love, to teach life experiences etc. Its just mere memories now. Aint no way on going back now.

Not that I dont want to go forward. But I made mistakes & regrets that I cant get past by. I wallow in the past, so each passing day was just a waste. I also did not reach some resolutions & goals. Yet again distract me as I go forward. Next thing you know, you have a job, marriage & kids. Where I certainly know i'm not ready for. LOL. At that point in life, there wouldnt be as much opportunities as we have now, being in this teenage life where opportunities come in any form, that shapes one's life. Hokay, hokay, lets stop worrying now. I'm tired, its late I'll probably forget what I wrote later in the morning. I got my driving lessons later. Beside I still have the 'opportunities', I'm glad. So I still have a solid 10-15 years to reach my further studies dream. Insyallah.

So do take chances as they arises, you'll never know it could be your future.

Good Night/Morning to all. Have a great day.

Its a test of 'Faith'

Greetings my readers, So holiday have officially started. What a way to kick back & relax, yes? I started my holiday with a whole day of album filled music hearing. John Mayer & Muse to name a few. Its so soothing.

Nothing particular in my mind, so I'll let my hands do the talking.

I can't seem to take a break from this song in my head. Its John Mayer very own 'Free Falling' & 'Daughters'. Its such beautiful songs. Another thought in my head, itching to buy bass guitar, something about that instrument that intrigues me. Though I have not seen alot of bassist here in Brunei, or at least 'hear' any from my buddies. So why not, If I try. Prolly will take me years to even play any string instruments. Lol.

I feel very empty today, I don't know if this is a blessing. What I mean by this is, I don't feel attached to anything right this moment. Maybe its telling me not to worry & just go with the flow. There is always a thought of a certain person on my mind, but like I said today is just different. I think what I'm trying to say is that, we should have our own time once in awhile, lets not think or worry about anyone else. Is it greedy to feel this way?

I also felt very different lately, ever since I got back from umrah. I see lots of changes in me. But I would like to think that I'm changing for a good & positive way intended on what Allah has in store for me. I feel very much thankful, ever more thankful than I use too. I also have peace of thoughts that makes me very patient now days. Or at some days. lol

I do indeed miss my father too, without him, my family is considered 'Dysfunctional' as Socialogy taught me that. Its true, I'm noting down facts & put it in perspective that I kind of lost my support & see that the stability of my family is dwindling down. Its a thought that has always struck me to the core, ever since I lost him.

Woaah, seems that the points in this post was really deep inside my mind. Just needed the time to dig it out. So much for 'nothing particular in my mind' as I said earlier. lol



Till next time. Thanks for reading.

So the bear went home crying.

Interesting title aye. haha, Nothing relevant of what I will write about today. Call me crazy, but I wasnt ready leaving college for 1st term holiday. Yes, I do need that rest, to reorganize & unwind. But somehow I didnt want to leave just yet. The factors of that may be that of the friends I met or the fact that I'm not satisfy that I didnt meet a certain people I want to meet so badly. ._.

So as I was saying on my other recent post, that I had my eyes on something, or someone. lol. Its weird. I feel so attached. Naw screw it, I just know I'll miss her. She is just adorable. Next term perhaps.

So highlights today, assembly was a bother, standing for an hour while hearing speech after speeches. Ngalih wah kaki, we are not robots. Skipped gp because of assembly.

Had free period at socio talking about our assignments, well not really, I was talking away with Izzati & Naqiah. (yeah, i decide to write names now, so I can remember) Borrowed teachers Air Mac book, mcm nada I went through her laptop, & they decided to take picture from the cam & put it as teacher's wallpaper, I regret not joining in... Damn! hahaha! By now teacher tau tue sudah. hahhaa!

Anyhoo, had history like biasa, tried to get close to the new teacher. hehe. Had a tiring time rubbing the board with Danial. damn cheap boards. & I get to officially meet Sarah from Danial's group. Econ was fun? Boo & Belle waved at me, & I waved them back while greeting cikgu, then he was like giving me that look. hahaha cali lh.

I wonder why teacher looks at me all the time, or is it the girl behind me. Owh & he also put me on the spot, about my age being 22. -.-' But in return I found her age. She is still young. =O Yeah, 'she' is in fact in my econ class. =)

Owh break was with them gang, for only awhile. =( So I didnt get to hang with boo that much today. Had a rushed messy snack too... -.-' Then went for assembly. Then after lunch went to the 'usual' hang out. Dangani Belle, & the best time of that time was when I saw 'her' there & 'she' waved at me again. =') So confidently waved back lh. ;D Utterly gorgeous, she is.

Then Syah came, I wanted to wave 'her' goodbye, but she wasnt looking. =( So, went to Syah's ride with Faiz. & saw Syaza too. Syah - Za short for calling them both, btw escaped school. Ish Ish Ish... Went to Mall to eat lunch, saw boo~ Destiny! hahha! majal. Because I didnt get to say goodbye to her either, tapi she was with her mom & sis. Nada brani kn bercakap sma boo. hahha.

Anyhoo, ate while updating. Sian si Faiz ahh, & ada lh panat story2 nya ani! I havent laugh as hard since... I dont know when. So it was fun. & to have Syah - Za as always, pleasent to be with. Ooooo & boo's family was like 2 tables away, sudah kn join tue! HAHAHHA! Cam banar. Then mau cari another hangout, so off to McD, Inda plg makan lgi. Just chill & minum. Before that bumped into birthday girl, Aimi. =) Faiz plg tagur 1st, then I said 'birthday'. The girls oblivious ahh. Biasa girls chit chatting nada focus on other things. Jk jk ;D

Then bla bla bla ke yayasan, bla bla bla, pakai boat, bla bla bla mama inda suruh drive balik since she is in a hurry mau liat drama. -.-' Then... I'll stop here... Too much info... its too detailed this post ahh. & no emotes today. Karang th. Boring jua this post ahh mcm dairy plg. -.-' Krg th post lagi shorter one. :D

Happy Holiday children. Enjoy.

Alas

Connection is a bit dodgy now. Anyhoo, Hello to you my readers.

I've been ranting on college all this while, well really because i have no time for my own leisures, its also tiring & that i'm commited to college.


I bought 3 movies just to update my self with movies & I got to say that 1 is actually worth while, & the other 2 are... yeaah. So why not I'll be a movie critic now.


Ninja Assassin.
Its god damn too bloody, I'll say. Beside that, the story is very... cheesssy! But I did enjoy the fight sequence so its not a total lost. Owh & the actor Rain, he did ok lh, not too awesome not too bad. I'll give it a 2/5 rating.


Percy Jackson.... Lightning Theif (panjang wah the title)

Its a pretty decent movie, had few laughs, interesting story line but with flaws & fast forward stories. The girl is hot, esp the girl at the underworld. Raaawwr Moving on, its quite entertaining & different. I give 3.5/5 rating.


August Rush

Its actually an old movie. But I decided to buy it. This movie is worth while! Trust you me! Well if your interested in music, romance & raw talent. Yeah why not watch it. Its a calm story which does not happen to make you sleep or feel bored. Ending is quite disappointing for me, would of been epic. It deserves a 4/5 rating.


Highlights at college.

Met 2 new girls at GP group, 1 of them is actually cantiks. So I did flustered when I talk to her. They are btw my new group the thing I dont like is that its only a group of 3.

Had a nice walk & talk with boo. Although its for awhile, but I loike it nonetheless. & hanged out with the usuals during Ps.

Wohooo I finally went home early today. Since I dont have class that afternoon. Came home around 2ish & I had lots of time for once. Wanted to do something for myself, then tertidor tia! HAHAHHA! But I manage to watch 2 movies today.

& the best day of today was TA-DA-DA *Drum rolls...
When the girl in class who I obviously know that I have a crush on waved at me!
Owh betapa malu nya saya tadi. I was flustered tarus. Waaiseeh! Ragu-ragu saya melambai dia balik. LOL! At first she waved, first comes onto mind 'Who she waving at' I looked around me, nada org pun. So waved back lh & hyper after that. Stuck in my mind sampai balik. I'll meet her soon enough lh. I'll just chill dulu. Her presence is enough to make me smile.


Its late now, about 11.40 sudah. I need sleep... & dream. LOL. Owh & my sister balik udah di Brunei kali. Dari Shanghai yo, hope she buys me something. Sleep well everyone. Owh to the tag boards spammers. Please use your original names, its annoying! You know who you are, I dont need to mention names right.