Happy Sunday~

A laid back Sunday today. Just the way i like it. xD

Woke up like 9plus, went online & chilling then have a nice bath. Such a relaxing day. Turun bawah buka aircon watched Next (movie), was so comfortable. Ate lunch while watching the movie until 3+, my parents came dri jemputan.

Tarus my mom ask to jalan, with no fuss i agree kn jalan, only me & my mom. Then my lil cuzns caught me changing, ishishish, semua lagi girls tue, my fault i didnt close the door. So my lil cuzn ani like lari kluar lh! hahah xD Then went down i said that iam going out. Then they frown. awwww xD hahaha rindu kn their fav cuzn! Ahaxx kambeng! So they went back next door lh!

Jalan to bengkurong, my mom mau bali crystals (pasu2 lh), her only target was to buy that, i wanted to cut my hair jua! So then we arrived the owner nada! I cutted (such word xD) my hair which I later regret!!! So anyway my mom call the owner lh. Damn desperate jua my mom! gagagag

TO MY SUPRISE! Shapa nah dtg si Danny & the family! I was like "sup man what are you doing here". He said ada customer call them. Then I pointed "yo is this your shop!", Si danny pun nod! Ahaxx lupanya! What a coincidence man! So we were like in the store talking while our mom pun talking! xD That was fun man!

So then went to hotmart shopping & all order satay & bali dvd! My mom lanja semua! gagaga xD So yeah ambil satay, otw home! So makan satay lh (is not for home) karit banar! hahaha, Well i did have craving for it since last week! So i was like eating2! Gila sampai abis ahh aku makan sorang! My mom inda mau mkn! I was like eyh where did the satay go? hahaha xD Kanyang nye~ Well once in a while! ;p i'll be doing my daily workout later!

Then my mom ani sleepy lh kn driving, i was like talking2 with my mom lh so she wouldnt feel sleepy! So then the car drifted right side!! I was like "MAAA!!" hahaha kajut my mom! so then i offered to drive! But naw my mom takut krg something happen! xD

I'll be backs, my bros in law ada! & my niece of course! xD

Back~ Bekas main pool! Well they are still here. I'll post this a quick 1!

Being vain beore kn jalan! xD


Rock on~


Eyh Si Danny nie! Shud of taken more pics!


Danny's mom & my mom. Bercerita nie~


I can see why my mom could me so sleepy! What a comfy scene!


Brothers from another mother~ xD


Yeaah Martin & Muiz!

Thts tht for now ya' all!

Mayb if iam rajin ada lagi i post later! =P

A new day...

I felt alright today.

Eng:
So went to school my parents antar so it was a little late. So at first I was just insecure. Plus Syaza wasnt here today! =( howel, But later on it was great. Sit with my seatmate during english, did our drawing presentation. Siok lh jua!

Econs:
So then econ, we were stalling nowhere to go, so we studied di parish hall. So sat with Rahat, si Hafiz nada, went to invitation sports day. & Amaling (oppss) ani banar tarus dari belakang starting pokeing tarus! Ouch! Sakit ahh! xD

So Karey was next to me, but then suddenly Syah came next to me! xD I was kajut lah jua! So then we cakap2 pasal lots of things lah. Syah ani banar membuat saya sweat & shaking! hahaha Pressure2 lagi her questions! & entah tawa2 ya ahh!! xD Ahax! So yeah she was like talking with 2 people at once! Cana kn tue! Eyh reminds me Ivan bday suk! But iam glad about something lh. Thanks Syah! I was relieve! xD

Break:
So yeah then break, usai meja & shit went to class then went to parish hall lagi sma Karey & Joel nutup aircon! Eyh detail jua? Anyway talking2 1 with si Karey about something! So yeah he then ada something in his mind lh! =P Then chat with Syah & Chelle! Dorang ani bana! xD

Geo:
Then abis break ada geo 1 per. Teacher gave back our paper. Hokay lh~ At least I pass, tpi banyak comment ah! + paper si Majh & Amal ani kana mark oleh adik teacher saying alot of shit! SKATI NYA! Who the hell are you! Aku pulang yang marah ani! xD

Chem:
So sat with Amal~ling! (ahaxx) Entah chilling while Si Karey di dapan, so kami ani talking about "Guys Stuff" lh! Then everytime ckp atu liat si amal & said kn kn kn! And Amal pun bangang lh throughout our talks! gagaga xD
Then chems didnt really listen too much talking i guess! xD

Maths:
Then maths, Mizah word of the day 'Swirl' Swerel! Ggagaga! 1 period boring *yawn, pasal correction, so took paper & did it for amal! =P you owe me $10 amal~ gagaga So then Majh & Mizah took this tissue cover thingy ada looney toons lh! So they cut & give us characters, Saya Sebastian! Amal ti..(HAHAHAHA, pakan) err i mean Twetty! (cana kn ija)! So yeah main sma atu pulang kn ambil gambar but inda mau ahh my camera!

After school:
~Said Hi to amal's gang~ (Nisah & Liyana)
~Then dangani Chel since Syah balik awal!
~Si Karey nada jua ahh. Cian Chel. Baik jua i went home late!
~Amal poke me from nowhere!
~Andy came to us then Nisah sama nasi nya! (i was hungry) xD
~So then she offered me, ambil spoon & I pulang makan! malu nye! well she offered me!
~3 bites later & 5min of talking later, Nisah didnt finish her food and she said nah ambil tia!
~Apa lagi makan lh while Chel balik.
~Jalan to the front with Andy while eating! Then both our cars dtg.
~Balik. Slalu nya jln but i guess today inda, shud of stay back with amal's gang! Howel xD

Ok i'll stop here people, damn bedetail today!
I havent wrote like this since last time!
=P

Peace~

Why?

I was in a difficult situation,
If you only could understand how i felt,
Maybe iam just too hung on love,
This first love will be a experience for a life time,

Of wanting to msg you all the time,
Making me wonder why'd you didnt msg on time or sometime didnt,
Even a short msg will suffice me,
I guess iam really inexperience at this.

I guess i cant take such a huge responsibility,
With such minor/newbie as my self to handle,
Iam just to into love wanting you every min,
But its obvious that iam incapable to do so.

With problems i cant help you get through,
Made me feel useless as a lover,
I guess i suck at giving people advice as well,
While making things harder for you.

-The End-

Thank You Syaza Adlina

I suspected this might come,
My Fear taken me in whole.

But I would like to say Sorry...
I Hope you forgive me...
I Hope it did not ruin our friendship.

As always you were my friend, best friend & a lover,
'Were' because I dont know how angry or hurt you are,
To forgive me.

I'll keep this 3months as my treasure,
As its like all those 3 years of msging together,
when we needed each other.

Your my Soul mate,
My First,
Always Will I Love You,
Might be hard to believe...

But I really do love you.

Please I dont want you to hate me.
I dont want to lose a friend like you.
Never!

A sweet, loving, caring friend.
A bestest friend.

I hope after this ordeal,
Iam still your friend.

Lets move on,
I hope you can carry on better than iam,
Its too hard for me,
But with things going this way,

My only regret is not leaving you with a smile.
I gave you so much burden and anger.

I would also like to Thank You for everything.

For making me smile,
For being there,
For being with me all this time,
For sharing me part of your life,
For the lovely gifts,
For the party you & Syah made me,
For your love.

Maybe someday.
'Always will I Love You'
Syaza Adlina

How I feel for you now

Only Hope

There's a song that's inside of my soul
It's the one that I've tried to write
over and over again
I'm awake and in the infinite cold
But You sing to me over and over and
over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
And pray to be only Yours
I pray to be only Yours
I know now You're my only hope

Sing to me of the song of the stars
Of Your galaxy dancing and laughing
and laughing again
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that You have
for me over again

I give You my apathy
I'm giving You all of me
I want Your symphony
Singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs I'm giving it back

A hint of Smile?

As i woke i felt a sudden change in me!
I begin to wonder and revise what has happened.
To my suprise i really cant take it anymore.
I was in pain or still is.
Especially today,

I guess iam just overthinking it,
or the fact that iam just 'emo',
as i would like not to use that word,
but i got to say... iam now.

It hurts, my heart aches,
i guess i didnt express my feelings for her,
i guess i didnt show that i love her?
Did I not?

Staring my phone just to see she greet me
'morning'
'good night'
'i miss you'
'i love you'
but i dont know if those are important now...

Sometimes you fell asleep,
with no msg in the morning,
you did apologize at times =)
but at some points,
when you didnt,
it ruin my mornings.

I know she has a life,
I know she is active,
I know she is busy,
I know she is tired,
I know she have her ow problems
Maybe Iam just a burden!
Esp Now!

But I dont know whether she still loves me.

If she do love me,
am i just blind to see it!
Why cant i feel it?

Syah & Khairi knows my fear now.
It might be a small deal to some,
but whats the point of not knowing she loves me,
giving my all to her. I know its worth it.
But i come to realise is it?

GAGAGAGA

A pathetic creature iam xD
A fragile human being.
With over sensitive feeling for a dude x)
A person who is very careful yet still can be hurt deep inside,
As whips to the heart leaving bloody scars!

Or people who have tummy ache with feeling of vomit?? ahhh x)

yeah i guess iam sick!
Man whats wrg, ramai org feel like vomiting di skulah ah!
Te-spread banar nie!

Ahaxxx Iam just paranoid now,
A smirk in my face like a clown,
with evil look and full of anger,
staring things with such focus!

paakknn xD

EDIT:
Iam feeling much better now =)
Mayb~ xD
=(

& to think i m leaving you!
Was I wrong, I Dont want to!
If your wondering what my head was filled through out the morning!

Fuck out, peace y'all

2nd july

So I cant blog yesterday since my laptop infected with something! So yeah i still can online and stuff!
Anyway yesterday is 1st July means that its been 3 months now with her though we are not a couple i still keep count!

But it didnt go owh to well since i wanted to give her teddy on that day but we dont have reason why I should give this teddy, since krg her parents will suspect something, and that night also where she has problems. So i let it go lh.

I m also in a verge of depression pasal my exam & i dont have anyone to talk to. Ada but I dont want to bother another her since she also has problems dari dulu udah. But she did said i can share my problems but its okay =P
(you know who you are)

So i have a deep sigh this week! Like yesterday cant blog and give her teddy. But today my laptop is worst! Baru sja kn buat history project and this came out! So now at this very moment still trying to usai it! Another favour for my friends download lagu, esuk jalan which i dont know with shapa sja!

So today at school was fine, had fun sitting with amal gang (mizah & majh) & the eng group thingy,, Syah,Chel,Karey & also BNM group ;p

Pretty much it i guess that made me laugh and smile today!
I cant seem to smile on my own now!